Beauty Lay With Fallen Gods...

hmmmn.

2004-06-06T16:23:36Z

1. Take five books off your bookshelf.
2. Book #1 -- first sentence.
3. Book #2 -- last sentence on page fifty.
4. Book #3 -- second sentence on page one hundred
5. Book #4 -- next to the last sentence on page one hundred fifty.
6. Book #5 -- final sentence of the book.
7. Make the five sentences into a paragraph

"What's this you're writing?" asked Pooh, climbing onto the writing table. And when you're all to yourself that way, you're really yourself for a little while, you get to thinking things through, alone. Padre Pederastia was, as on the night Simon met Miss Mao, very serious and hardly camping at all. Basically Bedford Estates included Convent Garden and Bloomsbury. The door closed and the curtains settled back, one curtain trailing over a sofa as though someone had taken it and tossed it there.

Book 1: The Tao of Pooh Benjamin Hoff
Book 2: Dandelion Wine Ray Bradbury
Book 3: The Illuminatus! Trilogy Robert Shea and Robert Anton Wilson
Book 4: 253 Geoff Ryman
Book 5: Queer William S. Burroughs

X-Mennnnnnnnn

2004-06-03T23:09:29Z

Character Name: Susan (Suze) [last name?]
Alias: Opaque
Power: Can turn things translucent, so that the lines and all the surfaces of the object and everything inside the object are outlined in silver threads.

more to come later

hm.

2004-06-02T11:17:13Z

Last night, she said:
"Oh, baby, I feel so down.
Oh it turns me off,
When I feel left out."

It's hard to explain how I'm feeling so I won't try.
"Groping for Harmony" comes to mind.
I won't try anymore. I'll just let things go as they please.

So I, I turn 'round: "Oh, baby, it's gonna be alright."
It was a great big lie, 'cause I left that night.

I'm back home.

2004-06-01T04:18:10Z

Cottleston, Cottleston, Cottleston Pie,
a fly can't bird, but a bird can fly.
Ask me a riddle, and I reply:
"Cottleston, Cottleston, Cottleston Pie."

My Natural Inclinations flow like water, reflect like a mirror and respond like an echo. I love, I reminisce, I enjoy the dull ache in the palms of my hands. I don't cry. I don't regret. I just am. I sing a soft song to keep myself calm. I clear my mind. I love, I reminisce, I enjoy.

From the ground to the sky
to our doom we are
as wise as wickets whom things pass inexorably through.

"Wouldn't you say, Pooh?"
"Say what?" asked Pooh, opening his eyes.
"Music and Living---"
"The same thing." said Pooh.

Whoo..!

2004-05-30T19:49:21Z

So I'm at Alex's place!

And damn, I love it here. It's so... I don't know. It's perfect. He might hate it but I love it. I absolutely love everything about this place. The heart of the metropolis is close by, and here in this house... things seem to be... balanced. It's like I've finally found something my exact weight to balance the scale. It's wonderfully similar to the dream apartment, although his uncle's place was moreso. That place, jeeeeesus. There was harmony in the walls.

The song in my head has switched tunes, it's got cicada-beat in the background.

I want to kiss you until my lips swell up
I want to kiss you until the sun comes up
I want to kiss you until the cicadas die
spiraling down in the heat of our oblivion.

God.

2004-05-28T11:12:47Z

So I'm 18 today, also, my period is back and kicking like a fucking soccer player. Yay body! You sure know how to spoil me. Yay birthday! Yay bleeding! Yay yay yaaaaay!

KAT. DRAW THE ANGELS PLZ KTHX.

So I'm going to Maryland to see Alex. Be back on Monday. Toodles!

hmmm

2004-05-27T00:13:45Z

http://www.hartmut-schueler.de/PinSeiten/Pinupvorschau.html

whee pinups.

I want to dress like this or this for prom. Where does a girl get such things?

I WILL LOOK LIKE A PINUP GIRL.

whoo!

2004-05-26T16:12:25Z

I got the camera!

AND I got accepted to this XMen RPG, I'm playing Tabby, which rocks, because I've always always always wanted to play her.

by the way, Drew Barrymore is insane.

http://www.superiorpics.com/drew_barrymore/pictures1.html

fghsdfdsf

2004-05-24T22:40:21Z

http://students.uat.edu/roshobbs/pan.jpg

there was a comic I used to read, with Pan in it, but I can't remember the name and I can't find it again, even though I know I linked to it someplace on my LJ. Anyone remember? Peter Pan was in it, and goat-pan was in it.

I miss RPing.

Edit: The comic was called Pantheon

hmm,

2004-05-24T19:43:41Z

CAUTION

IN THE INTEREST OF SAFETY IT IS ADVISABLE TO KEEP JENNERS AWAY FROM FIRE AND FLAMES.

From Go-Quiz.com

I don't know. Things are odd. I'm on the edge of an unskyscraper and I want to see what's deep down on the top floor.

Um...

2004-05-22T14:48:41Z

So, I, ah... I just checked my flist page for the first time in a few days, and I saw your two most recent posts, Simone.

Don't think you check my journal anymore, though. Why would you?

Anyway I think we're going to scrap Angels8. I don't think it's worth it, I'll tell you why, later.

Are you going to apply to UAT? Just curious.

Ben has my number and you're free to try to call me. No promises I'll be home, though. I mean... I don't feel like I'm at home at all, anymore. It's someone else who's here, making my room look lived-in.

I did explain to you that Tj and I were fighting around the time you IMed me? I think Alex explained it best; "If something's making you unhappy, it's not like you can split your attention in two and have one half be happy and the other angry."

After that, he said "Everything'll be fine."

So. Yep.

Jesus.

2004-05-22T14:19:52Z

Firstly, this site has some of the best LOTR fanart in the fucking world. I wish I could do the things these people do.

Secondly, everyone who's in the Freshman Documentation Project is ten times more dorky than I am. They're all talking about this crazy computer junk! I'm like "I...know...simple html?" It's making me twitchy. I'm not as computer savvy as I'd like to believe. I guess being around these complete idiots in school who know how to use AOL and that's it... Made me feel all superior.

I'm dumb. I hope that I can catch on quickly when I'm in college.

Having serious doubts about my talents. Meh!

YES YES YES YES :D!!!

2004-05-20T19:55:19Z

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=jill-off

YEEEESSSSSSSS! XD YES YES! WHOOOOO!

I'm excited. I love that term.

Um. So. Yeah.

::grooves::

I'm in a funky mood. But there isn't one of those on the moods list. SO.

hee.

2004-05-20T10:41:55Z

Take the What High School
Stereotype Are You? quiz.

I knew I'd get that. w00t.

So.

2004-05-19T22:55:27Z

I've been avoiding writing this. I have no idea why.

I told some of you this already. I guess I don't hate it as much as I say I do.

So I finished it.

The yearbook.

Yep.

So that's all I've got.

mew.

2004-05-17T02:35:40Z

My tummy hurts.

I think I'm gonna go to sleep.

hmmhmmm

2004-05-17T02:25:48Z

Here is Blender's list of the 50 worst songs of all time.
Post it in your own journal, and bold the songs that you actually like.

1. We Built This City ... Starship
2. Achy Breaky Heart ... Billy Ray Cyrus
3. Everybody Have Fun Tonight ... Wang Chung
4. Rollin' ... Limp Bizkit
5. Ice Ice Baby ... Vanilla Ice
6. The Heart of Rock & Roll ... Huey Lewis and the News
7. Don't Worry, Be Happy ... Bobby McFerrin
8. Party All the Time ... Eddie Murphy
9. American Life ... Madonna
10. Ebony and Ivory ... Paul McCartney and Stevie Wonder
11. Invisible ... Clay Aiken
12. Kokomo ... The Beach Boys
13. Illegal Alien ... Genesis
14. From a Distance ... Bette Midler
15. I'll Be There for You ... The Rembrandts
16. What's Up? ... 4 Non Blondes
17. Pumps and a Bump ... Hammer
18. You're the Inspiration ... Chicago
19. Broken Wings ... Mr. Mister
20. Dancing on the Ceiling ... Lionel Richie
21. Two Princes ... Spin Doctors
22. Courtesy of the Red, White and Blue (The Angry American)
23. Sunglasses at Night ... Corey Hart
24. Superman ... Five for Fighting
25. I'll Be Missing You ... Puff Daddy
26. The End ... The Doors
27. The Final Countdown ... Europe
28. Your Body Is a Wonderland ... John Mayer
29. Breakfast at Tiffany's ... Deep Blue Something
30. Greatest Love of All ... Whitney Houston
31. Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm ... Crash Test Dummies
32. Will 2K ... Will Smith
33. Barbie Girl ... Aqua
34. Longer ... Dan Fogelberg
35. Shiny Happy People ... R.E.M.
36. Make Em Say Uhh! ... Master P featuring Silkk, Fiend, Mia-X and Mystikal
37. Rico Suave ... Gerardo
38. Cotton Eyed Joe ... Rednex
39. She Bangs ... Ricky Martin (NOT William Hung)
40. I Wanna Sex You Up ... Color Me Badd
41. We Didn't Start the Fire ... Billy Joel
42. The Sounds of Silence ... Simon & Garfunkel
43. Follow Me ... Uncle Kracker
44. I'll Do Anything for Love (But I Won't Do That) - Meatloaf
45. Mesmerize ... Ja Rule featuring Ashanti
46. Hangin' Tough ... New Kids on the Block
47. The Only Thing That Looks Good on Me Is You ... Bryan Adams
48. Ob-La-Di, Ob-La-Da ... The Beatles
49. I'm Too Sexy ... Right Said Fred
50. My Heart Will Go On ... Celine Dion

My life is complete now.

2004-05-15T21:37:17Z

"It's Tricky" (by Run DMC)
It's Tricky to rock a rhyme to rock a rhyme that's
right on time
It's Tricky...it's Tricky (Tricky) Tricky (Tricky)
It's Tricky to rock a rhyme to rock a rhyme that's
right on time
It's Tricky...Tr tr tr tricky (Tricky)
Trrrrrrrrrrricky

Which 80's Song Fits You?
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I meant to do this last night.

2004-05-15T12:40:59Z

But I guess I forgot, because of yearbook. Here are my grades:

First Period Gym - 80 (no change)
Earth Science - 75 (up 2 points)
Volleyball Gym - 80 (down ten points... whatever.)
Government - 92 (up 8 points)
Labs - Failed (it's a P or F class, I'm only missing two and I have makeups.)
College Math - 65 (fucker, I went down TWENTY points because of that BS test.)
English - 88 (down 5 points. So I guess that D+ didn't hurt too badly.)
Yearbook - 98 (up 2 points, because I rock.)

Overall Average - 83.6

....

2004-05-15T05:18:22Z

It's 1:17. I got home about four minutes ago.

Yes. I mean A.M. Yes. I also mean from yearbook.

And is the book done?

NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO FUCKING NO IT ISN'T.

I'd commit seppuku, but I'm too fucking tired.

Well.

2004-05-14T11:23:06Z

So I've been sitting here staring at the screen for about two minutes.

Can it be I've run out of words?

I'm thinking maybe I'm just too tired anymore. I need sleep. I passed out at 9:30 last night, with my glasses, all my clothes, and the light still on, all of which I can never do, ever. I guess there's an exception to everything. I got home from yearbook at a quarter after eight.

I feel kind of like a SIM who's energy bar got so low that they passed out on the floor. I feel like weebling in SIMspeak, and shaking my fists at the user in the sky.

I have a giraffe, but I haven't posted the picture yet, because I am too fucking busy to have fun anymore. One more day, one more day. And then I'll be free of the stress. Not all of it, no, but a signifigant amount of stress. I think. I hope.

Oh ~~god~~ user in the sky, please let me finish this yearbook.

God...!

2004-05-12T02:34:35Z

Have you been outside? Have you felt it? The still, hot oven air that you could part with your fingers if you moved quick enough? The drowsy, heady feeling of summer? The dandelions are blooming big and white, seeds perched like parasites with parachutes on a swaying, milky green stem. It smells, for an instant, like the sea. It feels, looks, and smells like barbeque and humidity and fireworks and LIFE outside.

I fucking LOVE the summer.

hmm hmm hmm

2004-05-11T01:11:07Z

So I made Sam cry today.

That said:

THREE THINGS I AM WEARING RIGHT NOW
1) Nightmare Before Christmas shirt
2) Pair of Zebra striped undies
3) one black sock, one white and blue sock.

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK
1) Snapple Element's bottle of Hilighter fluid.
2) My collection of alterpieces.
3) The fairy on the toadstool I painted last time grandma was in town.

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
1) Solve a Rubik's cube.
2) Write a book.
3) Live in The Dream Apartment.

THREE GOOD THINGS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY
1) Original
2) Creative
3) Optimistic

THREE BAD THINGS ABOUT MY PERSONALITY
1) Petty
2) Obnoxious
3) Squeaky

THREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
1) My smile
2) My general shape
3) My eyes

THREE THINGS I DON'T LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
1) My legs
2) My breasts
3) The scars

THREE THINGS MOST PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ABOUT ME
1) I get jealous so quickly and about things I really shouldn't be allowed to be jealous about.
2) I really do want to be a rock star.
3) I have serious social inclusion and self esteem issues.

THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST
1) My -entire- ass.
2) That rocks the whole house.
3) I hate yearbook.

THREE PLACES I WANT TO GO
1) Tempe, Arizona.
2) Egypt.
3) Bed.

THREE NAMES THAT I GO BY
1) Jenners
2) Shortround
3) [The] Little One

15 Years Ago, I:
1. was almost 3.
2. watched my parents beat the shit out of eachother.
3. began painting christmas ornaments for my grandmother.
4. could read "Thumper's Little Sisters"
5. was almost kidnapped by my aunt.

10 Years Ago, I:
1. was almost 8.
2. went to P.S. 42 where the skies are blue.
3. Spoke for Amanda Slotterback in class whenever she was asked a question.
4. Didn't do a project on Triceratopi and got in a lot of trouble.
5. had a crush on a greek boy.

5 Years Ago, I:
1. was almost 13
2. learned about my father's cocaine addiction.
3. was dating Sal, who my friends called "ferret boy."
4. played pokemon a lot
5. was a jesus freak.

3 Years Ago, I:
1. was almost 15.
2. was cutting class a whole lot.
3. had my mom call Mr. Loffredo a crack head because he marked me absent on a saturday. (My mother - the oracle.)
4. Was engaged to Kim
5. Started roleplaying a lot.

Last year, I:
1. joined yearbook.
2. had a live band play my birthday party.
3. started smoking.
4. ran away from home.
5. hated my mother.

Yesterday, I:
1. Slept in until noon.
2. made dinner for mom.
3. made plans for a website with Spooky.
4. worried Benjamin and Anthony.
5. couldn't sleep.

Today, I:
1. yelled a whole lot.
2. made Samantha cry.
3. emailed my future roomies.
4. got a credit card.
5. had chinese food.

Tomorrow, I:
1. have to babysit.
2. will stay late in yearbook. again.
3. will present my Affirmative Action lesson.
4. will probably forget something vital.
5. will be really ridiculously tired.

5 Bad Habits I Have:
1. I'm constantly eating.
2. I try way too hard to impress people.
3. I curse a lot.
4. I flirt with people too much.
5. Ugh, I yank out all the hair on the inside of my forearms. During class.

Interests at the moment:
1. Getting to Arizona.
2. Finishing the Yearbook.
3. My Senior Thesis.
4. The Color of Fugue - the website Spooky and I are going to start up.
5. Learning how to play my bass.

5 Places I've Lived:
1. Hylan Blvd.
2. Armstrong Ave.
3. Petrus Ave.
4. Moffett St.
5. Mill Rd.

My Top 5 Biggest Worries at the Moment:
1. College.
2. Getting a job this summer.
3. My Senior Thesis.
4. My average thanks to that whopping D+.
5.

My Top 5 Biggest Joys at the Moment:
1. My birthday is in 18 days!
2. I'm going to see Alex in 19 days!
3. I'm going to Arizona!
4. I won the Freshman Documentary Thing!
5. I have a credit card!

Ummmm right. Oh! Tj got an A in English! Yay Teej!

meh.

2004-05-10T04:03:08Z

On your current playlist, hit shuffle and pick the first twenty songs on the list (no matter how cheesy or embarrassing), and write down your favorite line of the song. Try to avoid putting the song title in the line. (Instrumentals and repeated artists may be skipped) Then, have your friends comment and see if they know the songs.

1 It's not like you killed someone, It's not like you drove a hateful spear into his side.
2 Let the sunshine capture the sparkle of your smile.
3 When it becomes too dark, look and watch the sun burst.
4 Now I live on a new street baby, Address double zero and the place is nowhere.
5 Shrine, take me alive to your hive, vacate your throne as I die.
6 My heart comes undone, slowly unravels, in a ball of yarn, the devil collects it, with a grin.
7 She was disco lights on a friday night, she moves across the floor.
8 I travel the world and the seven seas, everybody is looking for something.
9 I been changing, I think it's funny how noone knows.
10 Our memories they can be inviting, but some are altogether mighty frightening.
11 In the eye of the storm you see the lonely dove.
12 Will anything I've done mean anything?
13 The mother of the willow green, I call her name.
14 Bleacher-creatures, would-be desperados clutch at plausible deniability.
15 I try to figure out where vancouver is from here and I listen to the leaves.
16 Your eyes are mockingbirds inside a gilded cage.
17 For you I would have shaken down the heavens from the sky.
18 I'm one of the children who just went ahead and fell for you.
19 Tell me can you take the death of love?
20 Give it all you've got until you're put out of your misery.

Technically, I decided I wanted to do this when I saw it on Kat's journal, but I decided to do it today after seeing it on Ashley's journal.

Now I'm going to try to get to sleep. For the third time tonight.

eh.

2004-05-10T03:00:20Z

"I called this manditory meeting of yearbook to say one thing. You'll be getting your report cards soon. Ninety percent of you deserve about half of the grade I gave you guys, but I know that if I ruin your averages and bring your class ranks down you're still not going to try any harder, because if you seriously saw this as an opportunity to bring your grades up easy you'd be here for your scheduled ninth period class every day and you'd stay late at least once a week. You may not have known it, but this Friday is the absolute absolute deadline. If we get the yearbook out any later than that, we won't get the books on time. So that leaves us with five days. I don't know if you can get out the last two sections in five days. I don't know if you can leave out the last two sections, either. The Activities section, I was trying to finish by last Friday, but I had zero cooperation from anyone, so it's still missing things. The Sports section is a wreck, and noone really seems to give a damn. But you've got five days. Samantha, you'd better get your fucking ass here every single day. All of you people, who think when the bell rings that this class is over, you'd better start caring. Because you've got five days. And you're going to have to do it without me. I quit."

Do you think it will work? I don't. But honestly, I don't really give a fuck anymore.

I honestly, honestly don't.